Words unsaid

Its valentines day

Usually I dont celebrate as I always wind up alone.

Even this year with a partner im spending it alone.

Romance and morality are so scarce in the world.

Connection is rare and fleeting, at least in my experience.

With you its different,

I find myself craving a life where I cater to you,

Where I find my reason to celebrate and live again.

I find myself not scoffing at the idea of genuine love but embracing it the moment your energy falls into my orbit.

I dont feel afraid to fall or commit.

I dont see a Grey area of existence , I see pure fire that is meant to ignite me.

I see my perfect design,

My downfall and my uprising.

The only thing is...

You aren't here where I need you to be.

You're gone somewhere in history and im here , Still thinking of the things that could have been

Im not hurting anymore, im burning alone.

Im not hollow , im a separate half dreaming of reuniting with my destiny

Im not closed off, im so open I could have thrown my entire being at you by now.

But here I lie awake, dreaming of a life we could have had.

I miss you, My one true soul mate. I wish I would have told you how I felt before you disappeared from my life.

Oh well, so time goes on.

Ill hold you forever in my memories.

Happy valentines day,

-Ying and yang

Your other half.