Anyone else becoming an avoidant?

I legit am scared of being limerent again. I also dont want anyone to experience what its like to be my LO. Its like Im protecting people I know Im gonna be limirent for. I want to find a healthy relationship. No obssesion involved. I want real and safe kind love. Limerence is ansiety and unhealed trauma squeeling out of me. I know how to recognize when someone triggers that. But it also makes me scared. Like what if I never find what Im looking for? What if I find someone amazing and Im too scared to let them in because I dont want to trigger my limerence. I know this sounds crazy but if you healed from limerence like I recently did you know the suffering, the agony that it is. I dont know. Think Ill continue to avoid love for now.