Idk, I might be unlovable and am going to die alone.

(M 20) I feel full of dread, I have very bad social anxiety and haven’t been able to really make a connection with anyone other than my long standing group of friends, and I’ve moved to a different state for college. I don’t see them very often, only a couple times a year and I try to keep in contact but they are busy with their lives. I just got mad friend-zoned by this chick my sister set me up on a blind date with a few months ago, we went on one date kind of a blind double dating that makes sense. I feel completely isolated and lonely, I live with my mom and I’m going to college so I guess I’m not and maybe it’s the anxiety from needing an energy drink to function at work tonight but who knows. I haven’t been in a relationship in over five years and they were casual highschool kind of relationships. Idk I feel like I’m unlovable and I’m going to die alone. Sorry for the rant.