I wanna talk about my friends.

The girl, let's call her pink. I texted her and told her she wasn't involved in the things I posted, but now I take it back. (I was just venting, I didn't mention their names)

And all week after this, we didn't talk to each other, they didn't even apologize. So actually, SN is also our friend, who started this. SN dared to be in a bad mood when I'm there, like bro, they really think they didn't do anything wrong and I wanted to talk to them and she responded with an attitude, also a friend of ours just tranfered to another school and SN said "You have no friends anymore," i know that was meant for me, not our friend. I actually thought she was someone I could trust, someone mature enough, but nope. She's also immature.

So what happened was they kept forcing me to talk to Apple (the guy I liked). They lied to me and said that Apple was just scared to make the first move and I should do it when I'm uncomfortable and not ready, I found out the truth; Apple said he didn’t know me which made me so relieved. SN always pisses me off so bad, on purpose. And they didn't even say sorry or anything.

I know this means as well, but I deleted my conversations with Pink on texts, I don't even wanna do this shit anymore.

And I wanna say, I gave this girl paragraphs when she's feeling down, she never did, I told her I loved her as a friend, she didn't, and then she does this. They're acting like I talked trash about them behind their back and btw, I told them directly that I wasn't comfortable, I wasn't ready and I'm nervous to do what they're forcing me to and this is the shit they do.

I know being called immature hurts, but I didn't do or say anything wrong or incorrect at all. They didn't even apologize, I tried talking to SN about it; I said he made me panic for no reason and they shouldn't do that, and why and he said "Patay-na-patay ka Kay Apple" which means "Head-over-heels for Apple" That is all I freaking get.

I don't even give af about what she says anymore. "Like, why'd you delete our convo on Messenger?" I don't wanna hear the excuses, the nonsense. Hell. Because that convo matters a lot, I've written paragraphs I said, comfort she received but never returned. I don't even care anymore.

Tried to talk about it to them, but I got zero apologies and an attitude, that's so mature. Their lie made me panic so much, and if they really knew me they would know I'm gonna avoid Apple further if he actually said that bs.

I just wish I never told them.