Does anyone have unbearable existential ocd spikes ?

I’ve had them on and off since age 12, but they become worse and more unbearable each time , it’s just ruminating on the big existential questions like why do we exist , how is existence possible , how is conciousness possible , why do I exist out of this point of view , death , losing parents , and wondering why other people don’t think about these questions more often .

It’s terrible and I feel trapped in a box and have this terrible feeling I’ll be trapped forever . How are people able to live as nothing is wrong , and I feel like my own self becomes an NPC when I start worrying about earth problems . Idek . I’m going crazy