Lost anal virginity to bbc at 18

Like the title says, I lost my anal virginity to a bbc. I was 18 and horny on tinder. Was completely straight but drunk, horny and curious. I matched with a guy, we chatted a little and I invited him over. Now at this time, I had very little experience playing with my own hole and had zero knowledge of butt stuff or the gay community lol. So on a whim, theres a black guy in my room and we are kissing in the dark. Keep in mind I have a 7" dick and he was bigger than me!! Im on top of him and its kind of a blur 10 years later. But he told me to sit on it and I grabbed his cock and put it inside me slowly. Surprisingly I didnt feel pain, probably because the liquor. I started bouncing on him and honestly it didnt feel good or bad. I was clueless haha. After a while he flipped me over on my stomach and absolutely pounded me. I just stuffed my face in the pillow and screamed. Again, it wasnt good or bad and didnt hurt after the fact and I wasnt attracted to guys at the time so the whole experience was kind of whatever. He plowed me on my stomach for a while and pretty sure he came inside of me. At the time I was under the impression he still had not cum so we turned the lights on and talked for a second then I started blowing him. He said he already came and being drunk I didnt really think anything of it.

The second time we met he takes me inside and I immediately tell him I want him to cum inside of me. Long story short, he was so aggressive and not patient, my asshole felt like it was ripping. We had to stop. But eventually I let him spoon me and fuck me until he came.

We later met up a few times and I went over to his place in leggings and a thong. Again, I wasnt really accepting of being gay or attracted to men. He walked me into his place, he had roommates so we went straight to his room. He immediately told me to get on my knees and I did what i was told. I pulled out his cock and he face fucked me for hardly a minute. I wasn't really into sucking dick especially one that big, I was terrible. He stands me up and tells me to get naked so I remove my leggings and he see's my thong (a really pretty victoria secret lace thong). He called me a bitch immediately after seeing my thong and it kind of offended me but nowadays it turns me on so much and thats what I want to be, a bitch. I suck him on the bed again then we get in missionary. His cock was BIG. This time, I felt pain! Im telling him to go slow and trying to control him with my hands on his thighs but he is digging in deep! Im moaning and eventually he pins my legs back to my head and starts pounding me hard. Im almost screaming but im fighting the pain more than anything. Still in missionary he crosses my legs and starts pounding my hole. The entire time hes been talking dirty telling me to take his dick and definitely not going slow. We move across the room and he puts me in doggy and this is when it started feeling sooooo good, like ecstasy. He isn't fucking me so I start bouncing on his cock back and forth and my eyes are rolling in my head and he came inside of me shortly after.

We did not meet up anymore as I was never attracted to him and still wasnt into guys and I was terrified of stds. Although he hit it raw everytime lmao