I need to disappear

I will never post again, my life is so stupid my problems are so stupid, my need to seek validation from random people online beacause I don't have any close friends to bother with this is stupid, Im stupid. I just posted about feeling sick for remembering that I killed a bug when I was a kid. I wish I wasn't autistic, I wish that I didn't just behaved like this and blame it on my disability. People have actual problems, actual lives. I'm just a stupid kid. I should disappear. I'm just that stupid kid crying for everything.

I wish I wasn't born, and I am so selfish to the point I wish I actually had some problem that would justify me being a failure.