I can't stop thinking about peeing while doing yard work

There's something about being outside in my garden that just makes me want to let go r there in the dirt. Yesterday I was watering my tomatoes and had been drinking iced tea all morning. The urge hit me so hard but instead of going inside, I just pulled my shorts aside and peed r there next to the plants. The warm stream hitting the soil, mixing with the garden hose water... it felt so primal and forbidden. Now every time I'm out there weeding or planting, all I can think about is marking my territory like that again. The ne could easily see over the fence but that just makes it more thrilling. I've started timing my coffee so I'll be desperate when it's time to tend the garden. Is it weird that I get turned on thinking about my piss nourishing the same plants I'll be eating from later?