I don't know if i'm build for design

First of all sorry for the rant and english is my second language so excuse any mistakes

I don't know if i should pursue a design career or even a creative career at all but i feel inside of me the urge to create something, i just don't know how to do it and kinda hate everything i do.

For context, i'm 20 years old and i'm in the middle of a Design degree but i had to drop out temporarily because of money problems, it's been a year and a half and i didn't made anything design related since then because everytime i think in create something i simply freeze. Before i had to drop out i had 3 semesters of various classes, some more theoretical and some a lot more pratical such as jewerly design, visual identity, typography (absolutely loved it btw), etc and despite not liking most of what i did back then i was able to actually do something because i had deadlines, grades and responsability with my group colleagues but now that i don't have that and feel that i can't do anything without this pressure, i've started to question wheter i should have choosen this career in the first place.

I choose this major in 2020 when i was 15 and my parents started to talk with my about college. Before that i'd probably choose something tech related but i decided to change that because i had just started a youtube channel (yeah, terrible idea) and i realized my favorite part of the process was making the thumbnails. Time passed, i stopped with the videos but kept doing some silly things like twitter banners for a couple people, etc and eventually i got into college when i was 18. I started to truly love the major there but i've also started to question wether i'm capable of pursuing it after i dropped out.

I have all the time in the world since i couldn't even find a job as a waitress in this time, i have a computer that runs perfectly fine the adobe programs (cracked, but still) but i freeze completely when i think in executing some of the ideas i have noted in my notebook.

Can you help me?