How do I stop feeling so ashamed of being a little?

This might get sort of into venty territory 🫶

I have always felt sort of ashamed of being a regressor. It got better with time, but never amazing. I still harbor a lot of shame around the topic.

One thing that certainly didn't help was a breakup i went through last October. Despite her never saying she didn't want to be my cg in the close to 4 years she was, she didn't want to. She said it felt like she was a parent.

You can imagine how it affected me. I feel awful about it now. I wish for a cg to come take me to bed and I feel very stupid for it. I'm going to finish this post before i get all sad 💔

Long story short I just want to know how to feel okay with being a little. Thank you for reading. Please be gentle with any advice you have ❤️