I hope I can have an NT brain someday

Being autistic, I have had to work twice as hard to get the things NTs have, like a good job and a nice car. I never had friends. I married a woman that ended up being bipolar and abusive, so I divorced her. I tried dating again (I’m 30), but no one is interested in me because I’m autistic, have no friends, and can’t cook or repair things around the house. I feel mentally around 12 years old.

i just would like to have a normal brain someday so I could see the world the way it is supposed to be seen.