My ex wrote this poem about me in the school publication

"

gazing in the past

watching it become fuzzy,

lose, incomprehensible

pieces that don't quite

lock together

so much of time

locked in thoughts

as the world blurred by

it's my necessity not knowledge that

what happened was there.

i hold onto

that broken window into time

or else

a tangle of lies and false reality

stole my life.

kissing silent air;

heartbeats i must remove from

my sweaty hand, walking,

wondering,

running away and drawn back.

smiling covering a locked

heart and

words escaping

clawing bones,

gripless.

gone.

can't piece back together

can't slow down my heart

can't run away

i hold on;

smile through;

say "thank you."

keep it, keep it.

promise myself it

wasn't broken from the start.

now i look back, wondering if

all those smiles were real.

scared that my heart my head could

be so out of touch.

so naive.

scared.

scared

i lost myself;

flashlight couldn't work in the dark

or i simply kept it off.

hold on.

i hold on.

believe i was

happy.

believe i

loved.

believe i don't lie to myself like that

assure myself that

my heart and

my head

stay firm inside of me.

believe i stand for myself.

please let me know i can

do what i want.

please show me

i can say what i want to say.

that am i not just malleable clay

folded by time and correction

breathe, now, just breathe.

in out

in out

in out

i'm here.

in out

i'm here.

in. out.

i must be here-

in...

out

"

I don't really know what to think or do about it. I don't know if she published it in the school publication so I would read it, or if she intended that I read it. I have no idea. Anyways, I just don't know what to make of this. I don't want her to think I never loved her or think that falling in love with me was naive, but I don't know what to do. Thanks in advance for your help.