I miss him alot

Hi peeps im new to this so sorry if my story sucks but here goes anyways at the time I met him I was just 29 and bi on the dl which still am btw and I cant remember his age but i know he was in his mid 30s or 40s but never the less one night outta the blue I felt a little to horny that I downloaded grindr and explored it for a while and then I met him my future crush well anyhow so he messaged me and we started talking and decided to meet up and so he picked me up and I couldn't help myself that I gave him a kiss on the lips and so we kissed for a bit then we agreed to go to his house and on the way to his house my horny ass couldn't help myself that I started to unzip his pants and take out his bbc then i started going down on him and gave him a bj half way to his house for a bit but stopped so he didn't have to cum yet so when we got to his house that he was renting the first thing we did was shower together then from there we went to his room and as we got to his bed we kissed and made out until he layed me on my back as he started to suck on my man boobs and from there I sucked his dick some more leaving his bbc wet and hard then he lays me back down and lifts my legs up on his shoulders as he fucks me missionary until then I lay him down and I start riding him then he's close to cumming he again lays me on my back for another missionary fuck until he cums deep inside me and after our little fun we cuddle with him being the spoon and me being the small spoon but yeah the next morning we wake up both getting dressed we kiss some more and from there he takes me out to Dennys for breakfast and after we finish and him taking me home I decided to pay him back with a bj well long story short we kept this up for a while until I got a girlfriend but almost everyday there's hasn't been a day that I don't stop thinking about him man I miss him and I guess i didn't realized that I caught feelings for him until I got a girlfriend oh well if only he knew