5 years down the road

5 years and it almost manifested multiple times. i was almost so close to have marriage with my person he did mention marriage and wedding rings 4 months ago. but then BIG circumstances came to which i reacted horribly and i had to take myself to therapy, anti depressants. I am back to point 0. i was so convinced this was going to happen. Honestly this is affecting my mental health because i still thinking this is possible. I never cared about the time but of course my therapist said “it hasn’t happened in 5 years what makes you think it will” this is not affecting me because my desire hasn’t happened but because also this is my whole personality.. I started reading Neville back in 2018 i manifested HUGE things in my life i wrote a book, changed careers, bought a home at 24. car paid off. honestly all my desires came tru. If you have any experience that you want to share.. please be kind. did you ever have to give up ? it’s so hard for me to do that.