I’m struggling.

I’ve been awake for awhile and I’m very familiar with dark nights. I’ve found many ways to work through this and come out on the other side. My anxiety has gone. I can’t describe how it feels to finally not carry that. But recently with everything coming out of the Epstein files, I am in a state of grief I can’t break out of. I didn’t go digging, just the things that came along my algorithm were disturbing on a level I didn’t realize. And knowing there’s much more, worse things I don’t know. I have daughters. I’m a woman. It stirred anger and just extreme grief. I don’t know how to get through this. I’m not a victim that I can remember anything as a child, and I can’t understand where this is coming from. I try to protect my emotions while being aware. But I feel frozen. Is anyone else feeling this way?