i think i just ruined my friendship

I’m studying in a new country, and I met this girl before we got here, and we became best friends in June or July. We literally do everything together all the time.

Recently, for the last month or 2, I would get jealous when she talked about other guys, and I realized I’m starting to catch feelings, and I finally told her yesterday after distancing myself for a couple of days. She noticed I was acting weird.

Now it’s super awkward, and she said she can’t look at me or our friendship the same anymore, but it was eating me up inside not telling her.

She’s the only person I really have out here. We did like everything together, and we’re super close, but I guess I got attached, and now I’ve gone and fucked it up.

Not sure what to do or how to make it better, but I’m really lonely, and she was the only person I had that I could truly be myself around and felt comfortable with.

I’m so fucking stupid.