Comphet or bi

Kinda nsfw? Idk

Okay so I’ve always identified as bisexual, since middle school (currently a senior) and honestly there’s a character I relate to HARDCORE that didn’t come to terms with their sexuality in the finale and now I was scared I was gonna be like them and ANYWAYS

Long story short I took a couple of ‘am I comphet’ quizzes and a lot of the questions hit different.

I think I might actually be a lesbian but I’ve kissed a guy and I got butterflies n shi but maybe I just really liked kissing? Emotions and feelings are very odd for me, I can only really tell how I feel about someone else through like really odd ways.

Some of the questions that got me:

- is it difficult to tell if it’s butterflies or anxiety around men?

- when you imagine a future with a man, do you feel trapped

- do you choose a man to be attracted to

The second one hits different because when k was with my ex, everytime we dated (on and off for a bit) I wished he was a girl…

The third is ALSO because of my ex but I realized that everytime he came up to me to try to date again I would get butterflies and I think I had convinced myself I liked him? Because everyone I actually sat myself down I would be icked out by him, I don’t think I want to date him ever. We were together and it felt more like we were friends than anything. BUT THEN there were times I wanted to kiss him (we never kissed because it was such bad timing and this was before we could meet up, everything was so innocent we barely even held hands because we were scared) but the kissing part is a recentl development, and that I don’t want anyone else to date him ?? I DONT WSNT HIM WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THAT??? But there’s another case where like I wanted him to talk about what he’d do to me or whatever and I INSTANTLY got Icked out I didn’t take him seriously so idk if I’m just not attracted to him or to men in general???

I also have this fantasy that like when I go to college I’ll get a gf and this isn’t helping my case?

This is all over the place I’m sorry but like advice welcomed, questions welcomed, literally anything atp to help