3 months

It’s been 3 months since he died in my arms. While we were having sex. 36 years old sudden cardiac arrest from unknown heart disease. I’m traumatized. Therapy for me was a joke pointless waste of money. We had been together since we were 15. Yesterday I managed to get through. I had moments of anger. Today has been hard. Crying all day. Having his parents come for dinner today. Our 6 year old son has been seemingly handling this pretty well. I have him In therapy through school , I haven’t had an update since his first day which they said he wouldn’t need therapy long. The thought of him growing up without his dad is killing me. No male influence. I don’t know how I’m going to do this. I have no future Everything we planned and hoped for is gone.