22 [M4F] India - Any long distance sufferers out here? Just wanna talk or get off. Going through mixed emotions and would love some company.

Hi! So I'm, M22 from India. I'm chubby, light brown, bearded and a lil hairy. I've been in a long distance relationship for over a year and it has been my first serious relationship. I love my girlfriend, she's cute, smart, kind and really empathetic. She's had childhood traumas and sometimes dealing with her emotions makes me feel really exhausted. I'm not really the best at handling emotions but i try my best. We also do have our differences and don't know how certain the future is gonna be. Apart from that I'm also sexually unsatisfied since even after trying to have sex multiple times I've never been able to finish cause she starts feeling a lot of pain and I've been a hugely horny person forever and thus have built up a sensitivity threshold such that it takes time for me to cum with a condom on. On top of that or sex drives our pretty mismatched, and she is not even comfortable sending me nudes for me to take care of myself without telling the guilt of watching porn\reddit. All this sometimes makes me want to just break up but I'm attached and some part of me different want to let go.

For the horny people, I'm into freeuse, edging, bdsm, gentle femdom, nursing, and probably a lot more i can't think of. Also, I am switch.