Just a vent

I’m gonna preface this by saying I love my little polycule. I’ve been with my current partner for a couple of years now and we have a small group of friends that are all part of the constellation somehow, and it’s all very kitchen table. For reference I’m solo and live on my own. I’m only involved with my one partner atm because I had been going through a difficult divorce with my primary and wanted to focus on me.

I love my little family. But sometimes it is difficult to see all of my friends happy with multiple partners happily flirting amongst each other and loving on spouses and partners a like when I’m struggling myself. I realize I’m just being a bitter lonely dude on valentines weekend and acknowledge that comparison is the thief of joy. I love my family and am happy they are happy. I find strength in my compersion for them but there are days(like this weekend) where I just can’t help those intrusive bitter thoughts.

Anyways that’s my rant. No advice needed I just needed to say that to someone and I have no one to say it to.