I'm such a fucking idiot

I have my main save where I have TWO DAYS worth of time playing. I really liked this and was in the post game. I got a little bored and decided to murder my entire cult, thinking I could just reload as long as I didn't save. Then I TRAVELED. I didn't know it auto-saved. I'm such a fucking idiot. Now I have to restart, and I can only blame myself. I just wanted to rant about my stupid choice and loss.