ADHD is ruining my life.

Hi all, I joined sometime ago and lurked here and there but in true adhd fashion have not been back on. I’m here because I’m in need of advice. I am 30 and have never gotten to the appointment chair to be medicated, I tried sometime ago, but kept getting passed around to expensive appointments and with employment changes eventually, I didn’t have access which leads me to right now where again I currently do not have access to insurance. I know I’m ADHD. I have been told that I have ADHD. Just never diagnosed formally. I was placed on bupropion XL 300 mg about two years ago during a severe bout of depression and anxiety and was told it would also help with my ADHD true to buproprion fashion, The honeymoon phase was great. I had a lot of energy life was good and then my body adjusted to it, fast-forward to now I feel like it’s a detriment. I feel like it makes me spacier than I already am. It makes my emotions huge, which they already are having ADHD. It agitates me it depresses me and I cannot get off of it both for the fact that I don’t have the insurance to taper down off of this dose and also the people around me can’t stand me when I’m not medicated. My dysfunction is at an all time high, my memory is worse somehow, my impulses run my life despite me clawing back at them

It’s ruining my relationship, people around be suffer because of my condition, and my livelihood feels affected.

I am so stuck in a rut and feel so bleak about it. I feel stupid. I know I’m not but my symptoms make me feel less than my peers.

I’m looking for advice as to how you overcame your symptoms or if you tried any natural supplements that helped im pretty desperate at this point

I feel alone where I am and that’s why I’m coming here to remind myself that there are more of us and we can succeed

I need a bit of hope and some solid pointers

Much love.