Hard to date because of porn addiction

I think porn is controlling me. I had the opportunity to continue to have sex with a real girl but I chose porn, it felt better. It aways feels better. It feels like real girls can't ever give me the same variety even if I go on disgusting hedonic apps like tinder. Plus I do amphetamine stimulants which worsen my porn obsession...making me hyperfocus on porn. Oh Lord Almighty...is there forgiveness for one such as me? What do I do...? What the fuck do I do? Is it the end of my romantic life?