We have split up, she (F18) has destroyed my (M19) mental health. And I want her to receive karma for it

Me and her got together October 2023. We are long distance and met on Snapchat. It was amazing, both being our first relationship. She struggles with mental health but I was the opposite. I didn’t think anything of it so I thought I could help her. There’s things she did during the start of the relationship, with two counts being unlawful lies about sexual assault she apparently encountered. She said one of them to be me that sexually assaulted her to her friend, apparently I closed the door on her and forced her to let me finger her. But apparently it was a mix up with what happened to her in the past with a polish guy in a town near her and she had to walk all the way back home sobbing on the phone to her friend. and the other she told me she was sexually assaulted by a fat small ginger guy in her town after school and her Nan’s friend saw it all happen, and told her Nan’s friend not to tell anyone. She told me these were lies and was made up for attention after our first breakup in November 2024. Me thinking nothing of it at during 2023 December, because of her mental health, I forgiven her.

Moving on, February time, we had our first couple arguments, silly things here and there, nothing threatening to our relationship. But if only started to get worse from there. She’d come up to mine for a weekend or a whole week, go out shopping, or go on the train somewhere, and it would always end up in her getting frustrated over little things like people not walking fast enough, people ‘giving her looks’, getting mad at me for not buying her things etc. And her mood would be taken out onto me which made me feel small. Around this time she pointed at one of her scars and told me it was my fault, which has hurt me a lot. Fast forward to November, she was going around this guys house to drink and smoke weed, and I didn’t like it at all. I told her lots of times it was affecting me and the relationship boundaries are being broken. She brushes it off and calls me insecure for it. I had enough one day whilst she was over his, so I decided to finish the relationship, although I really didn’t want to, it was for the best as my wellbeing was really being taken into affect. After the breakup she admitted to liking him whilst we were together but she was trying to ‘push it away’ because she still loved me. The breakup was hard, and I took my frustration out in a wrong way, demanding questions on why she’d done this to me, if I did what she did how’d she feel, telling her I’d tell her next boyfriend what she’s done to me in the past (sexual assault allegations). After about a week or so I knew she was sorry. And I was sorry too for being so harsh after the relationship.

After about a month, we got back together, she understood what she was doing was cruel, and I understood how I took the breakup was wrong. Things were alright again, until about 2 months back into it. The arguments came back etc. There were always good times to cover the bad times we had though. It’d always end up okay. Scaling on to August 2025, she started her second year of her education and met new friends. All of these friends were guys. And it made me feel jealous, anxious, upset. She’d message me all about how she’s spoke about this and that with her guy friends and that they’re going out after school and such. Even though I repeatedly asked her not to mention her guy friends. She never changed, and I only changed for the worse because of how I have been treated. Made to feel like a nobody, no care, no treatment like how a real relationship should look. I’d be the one to say good morning, I love you, goodnight, ask to call, mention topics other than about her guy friends, but it would always end up in her telling me about what she’s done with them that day. Moving on to around November, specifically November 19th, she came over for a weekend, things were a little rough but we managed to talk and get things into good motion whilst she was round. After couple weeks later, she told me she feels weird, and that she’s missed her period. I thought nothing of this as she has suffers with anorexia and tends to miss periods quite often. During this, we had bad arguments back and forth about her guy friends, as she told me one of them liked her and that she was still speaking to him at school and on the phone, which was just making a toll on me. It got to the point where the relationship was so raw, she decided to call it off. We finished things on the 4th December. Distraught, but there was no other option at that time. Until December 11th 2025. She found out she was pregnant with my child. This really knocked me off the ground, it affected me so much. And again, I took it the wrong way. Towards her, I told her I didn’t wanna be here no more, that I can’t do it anymore. Not seeing the way she felt too. I was so secluded over the fact she was pregnant that I forgot her feelings towards it, and just explained my raw emotions to her when I should’ve been supporting her instead. She had plans to keep the child, but didn’t end up keeping it. She aborted the child through the middle of January this year.

Even though I told her I felt this way over the fact she was pregnant with my child, the back of my mind still wanted that child. My family knew all about our relationship, and was prominent with telling me to tell her the abortion would be for the best. As we don’t get along, and her family dislike me for the way she has spoken about me to them so she could be seen as the victim and me as the enemy.

I felt bad for encouraging the abortion, even though I know if the child was to be here, it wouldn’t grow up with a healthy parental relationship. I didn’t once force her to have the abortion, I left that to her choice. Every day, I think about this, I think about how it would be going right now whether life would be better knowing I have a baby coming in a few months, that me and her may actually work with this child being between us. But I’m living the second scenario, where we are grieving. We met somewhere for the day, to hand each other our belongings, and to perhaps say our last physical goodbyes.

She told me the other day she doesn’t love me anymore which really hurt. She’s still friends with all these guys. She’s been going to the guys house who likes her, look at her sexually, spoken sexually about her, and went out with him and three other guys to have a drink. She sent me a photo of her with all of them posing, with the guys arm wrapped around her sticking his finger up at me which is just pure disrespect.

The guy has a few personal problems, which were only between him and her. They were communicated between her and him whilst she was at his house. She decided to tell me all of these issues he has. And one of his close friends told her more of his personal problems that he hasn’t told her personally. She has told me all of these secrets. And obviously, if I were to tell him, he’d know straight away I’d only know those secrets from her, which would ruin her relationship with him. I also have image evidence of her saying she was trying her hardest with her other guy friend to make up excuses to not go to his house because she was ‘scared he will touch her’. She said she only wanted to go round his for a drink, as the plan was to go to his for a drink. Just him and her alone.

I really want to message him and prove to him She isn’t the person she shows herself to be, but I know it will affect her in a bad way as her main friend has moved away very recently, and she has struggled making friends her whole life. I just want to know if it would be cruel of me to expose her to this guy? I want to, but my heart won’t let me because I still care about her being okay.