Looking for strategies. I struggle a lot with execution, perfectionism, OCD and mental overload

I’m a woman in my early 30s and I’m really struggling with something that’s starting to affect my mental health.

I want to create content (videos, blog posts, educational content). I plan everything, organize my ideas, research a lot, make outlines and bullet points. But when it’s time to actually do the work, I freeeeeeeze!

I get stuck in endless research trying to find the perfect article or source. If I can’t find exactly what I want, I get very stressed and overwhelmed. My brain overcomplicates everything and I feel like I have to do things perfectly, which makes starting feel impossible.

When the stress builds up, I start picking at my skin (which I know is linked to OCD and anxiety). I get distracted, overwhelmed, close my laptop and quit. Then I feel frustrated, ashamed and disappointed in myself. And the cycle starts again.

It feels like planning is safe, but execution is terrifying.

I know I have OCD traits, I strongly suspect ADHD, and I’m also wondering if this could be related to autism in women or neurodivergence in general.

I’m posting because I feel very alone in this (my sister told me to stop being lazy yesterday). I’d really like to hear from people who relate. If you’ve struggled with perfectionism, execution paralysis, ADHD, OCD, autism traits, or creative blocks, I’d love to hear your experience and what helped you.

Also, is this the right subreddit for a topic like this?

Thank you all :)