I feel like I can't socialize

I went to a little club for my main hobby and interest. There weren't many people there, I thought that would make it easier for me. No. I can't connect to people. I can't talk. I feel like such a loser and a failure. I try so hard and I just can't socialize like others can. It's not even like people were mean to me, other people tried to talk to me and I tried to talk back but I kept missing social cues I think. I missed something, I can't tell when to stop or start talking or when to ask questions. I had trouble hearing people. I had trouble starting conversations.

I just. Man. I want friends but I'm such a huge failure. That's it, I don't feel like I belong here. I feel like I wasn't meant to be a human. I know I should keep trying but I feel done. I think I was just meant to be alone forever.