The mental rush when you meet someone who is NICE

So much here and out in the community is focused on the mechanics of sex and the transactional aspect of how do I get the best while giving the minimum that I have to. I wanted to hear from people on the mental side of this and see if I was alone or not.

As a vers person, this often makes me feel like I would rather be alone. Tops are pushy and know they're in demand and that flavors your interactions, especially in the beginning when you feel like you have to sell yourself. Many bottoms trip me up mentally because they want to be protected and held and pleased, which are things you give when you love someone and have a bond, but they want it from strangers and then want to go get the same thing from another stranger.

I used to love daddies but now that I am 45 (still very young and look 35), my obsession is modest and humble and nice but hot bottoms. The power they have over me is astounding. They shut me up. I feel like my brain stops. Each one is new and exciting, like a present to unwrap. All I think about is them, grabbing them, pinning them against the wall, I don't even care what they do in bed, it's about the two of us bonding and the energy and creating something bigger than the two of us.