21 [M4F] #Online - Depressed Gaming Boy Looking For Depressed Gaming Girl

hello hi. my name is Joshua. i've been looking for someone i can share my life with for some time now. to be honest, i don't want to live if it's not for someone else. because of that, i've only been scraping by day by day. only things keeping me alive right now are the people surrounding me. but i've been better.

last time i was in love with someone, i actually wanted to live. i drew. i wrote. i worked. i actively tried to take care of myself. unfortunately though, that crush i had didn't work out. i don't blame them though, they just didn't feel the same way.

all that said, i grew dependant on that feeling. i don't want to live if it's not for someone i love. and i want to meet someone who feels the same way. that way, we can help eachother grow, and be beside eachother the whole way.

as i implied, i love to play videogames, and i see it as a way to bond with others. i've long enjoyed PvE shooters and occasionally dabble in some PvP as well. basically, i'm very good at casual games, difficult games, and am usually decent at competetive ones. i have alot of time spent on Warframe, Call of Duty, Helldivers, etc. (if you play Roblox, i have a particular favorite Horde Shooter i'd love to share with you.)

ideally, you are around my age, but if you are slightly younger or, perhaps, older, i won't mind.

some extra info in case you'd be curious:

I love music. i have dozens of playlists curated for specific genres and vibes. i mostly enjoy listening to Electronic, Vaporwave/Synthwave, Instrumental Metal, Rap, and Jazz. i also occasionally dabble in other genres. only one i don't like is Modern Country.

I'm in a few NSFW spaces, and i'd hope you'd be okay with that or even would be willing to share media like that with eachother (assuming we get close enough, that is)

i Voice Chat alot, and am not really a big texter, though, as you can see here, i am pretty expressive with my texts. i'm usually online daily with my friends. if i'm feeling confident in my appearance enough, i'll even turn on my camera, which, tbh, is more often than not. i'm usually not very expressive audibly, so i like to turn on my camera so people can see my facial expressions.

i'm about 5'10", ~200 lbs. white skin, naturally brown hair (though i like to get it done silver).

i have an adorable cat. his name is Cashew and i love him with all my heart.