Should I keep going to AA?
I went to my first AA meeting yesterday. I have over 3 years sober at this point but I haven't felt this scared for my sobriety until yesterday. When I shared saying I'm an alcoholic felt like a lie. I'm truly not an alcoholic. I abused alcohol when I wasn't sober, but I got pressured to quit and I did. I don't even like drinking. Marijuana and a single run-in with opiates I think about every day are my real issues. But even then, I feel like in the meeting, everyone else there had a much harder time quitting than I did. For me, I didn't even use that often, maybe 3 times a week. My first two weeks sober I didn't even think about quitting, I was just too lazy to get more to drink and smoke. I only used for a year and a half, and in that year and half I was never physically dependent on anything beyond intense psychological cravings. I didn't ruin my life, I stopped because I knew I was going to ruin my life and I was losing my sanity. But the sentiment that no one else can make you stop just didn't resonate with me, I stopped because a guy I liked told me to. I really do care about staying sober and I don't know if I can stay sober if I keep doing what I'm doing, but every time I hear a "we" statement, I realize most of them don't apply to me. But when people shared, I felt them deep in my bones. Drinking before middle school, praying to God to keep you sober so you don't go insane. I felt that. The people there were so welcoming and I felt so happy to be there. I also don't really have time to go more than once a week and I feel pretty confident that I can maintain my sobriety on a daily basis, I just want to strengthen my resolve to stay sober.
Posted Feb 15, 2026, 11:00 PM UTC