should i go on debt to travel.

ik its risky. and sorry if i sound crazyyy here...

but tbh i dont wanna wait like till im 40 to travel cus ill be too old to like anything and i have to abandon all my cute adorable girly interests by 21. im too stupid for college so might as well get credit cards and travel a bunch in my 20s. i don't plan to live that long tbh. cus being any age above 25 sounds very daunting. and i don't want to build a future anyways there's no point in that. ill be way too old to enjoy anything.

i see travelling is so normal in 20s and im so envious of girls my age who are travelling by themselves and post on instagram. like wow i have to travel at some point in life. im so done staying w my family who hates me.

im really old rn. im like 20 like yeah IK super old and gross and im not a teenager and its so embarrassing to exist. i never had fun in my life and i believe i never will unless i go on debt. i hate my family they are all annoying always yelling at me and ruin my day just by breathing at this point. my degree is useless af anyways if i graduate ill get nothing out of it. maybe some fuckass job as a toilet cleaner at a fastfood restaraunt and live in some ugly perverted guy's basement.

so i wanna make credit cards to travel cus i got nothing to do. jobs won't hire me cus the job market is ass. i keep hearing how students take "gap years" to travel like my fucking god where do you get the fucking money from. ppl make it sound like its free to travel my fuck. i wish it was that easy. im genuinely jealous of content creator vloggers who are students yet they travel so much like every 5 days or something.