Lust

Battling lust makes me want to die. Theres no escape. every move I make in life theres some sort of temptation lurking. I understand that just because we have a drive doesnt means we ought to participate. But It feels like theres something wrong with me. All the while every other Christian in the world just has ZERO desire for sex. even married couples who are allowed to imbibe, it seems most of them have the attitude of "sex yeah we could take it or leave it." How do you force your body to not want something that is biologically instilled? I am at the point of searching for certain chemical castration drugs to hopefully lower my testosterone enough to where my sexual appetite ceases. I get that as a christian im not suppose to even think about sex before marriage, and even after marriage sex isnt asomething we need, but it feels like someone saying "you don't really need air to live" sometimes a dirt nap seems easier than continuing wrestling with lust and purity.