cumdum bottom for the first time, is this a good idea?

Hello everyone… So far I am exclusively straight, okay maybe bi, with a big interest in bdsm as a slave. I love pegging and other things, some quite extreme. Yes I have some experience with forced bisexuality bdsm play, and I love it. Do you think it is a good idea to visit a horse market type event as a bottom? Ever since I read about it here I can't stop thinking about it and I would like to experience it. Now I am waiting for tests and Prep to be ready… could it be a problem that I am not gay? I like women, I love sex with women, but I can't stop thinking about being a slave to many men and not having control over it.

I also visited Shemales a few times and got fucked... great memories