This Lent, I’m taking the little boy within me on a journey of healing

In a previous post, I wrote about how I never got the love and the boyhood that I longed for.

When I was a boy, I wanted so much to feel belonged by my brethren.

I also wanted to fully live out my masculinity (meaning, to adopt certain traits that I associate masculinity with).

However, this never came to be, and my inner child is in pain ever since because of that.

And for years, I've been drowning this pain in distractions, whether it be maladaptive daydreaming, pornography, alcohol...anything to dissociate me from the hurt.

Well this Lent, I feel that I have made enough progress to set aside these distractions and finally confront my greatest fear: truly connecting with the little boy inside of me. I want to meet my little self, hold him in my arms and tell him that he is loved.

Thankfully, I'm not alone in this endeavour : along this journey, Jesus will be the big brother that I have always wanted.

By experiencing his unshakeable love for me, I will, in turn, be able to give my inner child the love he longs for.