I have my first doctor appointment in years tomorrow and I’m terrified.

I (27M) haven’t been to a doctor in over 7 years. I had a traumatic experience as a kid and have been scared of doctors ever since. But I got put on Lexapro by the nurse I have to see at work every year, and in order to keep the prescription I have to see a doctor who will take it over.

Im really terrified though. I’ve been having panic attacks over and over for the last week and I can’t help feeling like I’m going to be judged for not going sooner. I have regular appointments with a dermatologist but I know that doesn’t really count as seeing a doctor regularly.

I really just need a hug and advice on how to keep calm.