Can you push your nasip away without realizing it?

I have met several women, and most of the time things didn’t work out because I couldn’t fully open up or get emotionally involved, as certain things about them bothered me. However, there were also times when I had no clear reason for holding back or for not being able to express my feelings.

Now I wonder whether it is possible that I may have pushed away my nasip, the person Allah has destined for me, without realizing it. From an Islamic perspective, can this happen?