I'm feeling bad.

Hi, I'm feeling unwell.
I watched a lot of Christian content, theories about the apocalypse and the return of Jesus, and out of fear I decided to follow them. When I wanted to stop, I started having panic and anxiety attacks.
I've probably developed religious OCD and scrupulousness; my life is hell, I'm never okay, and in my head Jesus is already coming back.

Because of everything I've seen, the theories about 2030, the tarot saying the same thing, and I even had a dream where he spoke to me before I tried to leave, and he said he was coming back.

And I keep revisiting the subject all the time, I've lost the will to live because it no longer makes sense to me. There's atheism, but the Christian comments there made me feel bad.

I can't sleep because of anxiety, I feel miserable, and I want