Who do I go to for support?

Even with my parents alive, I feel abandoned and alone in a different country. I get calls when money is needed. why won't you call me to ask me how I'm doing mom? you don't even call me dad or message me if I'm alive or not. all my life you closed me off in the house because of hideous face and didn't want to take any events but now you want me to take you out to try new food places? all my life you said that my brothers were a priority and they take care of you when they get older but now I have to be the parent to your childish tantrums? you created this broken person and now you want nothing to do with it, where should I go? you made sure i have no one. I cannot trust anyone anymore. why am I even alive?