Just another lonely post

I’ve got no big things to say, except I’m stuck in a rut as a fairly high functioning autistic man, who can get motivated in stretches and the right circumstances but they’re few and far between. Stuck a in proverbial tug of war, don’t want someone I can’t trust but also don’t want to die alone. Damn it. In high functioning enough to hold a job and present normal but not enough to do most of the normal things in life. Being in Maine doesn’t help matters.