Is allah truly merciful? Is he truly just? Or is he just the creator.

Forgive me if I come off rude or hateful, I am a fellow muslim and I have been grappling with so much resentment towards Allah because of unanswered questions, and I really wanted insight on it. No one wants to answer my questions, they have been avoiding it and I really had no choice but to ask here. Sorry if it is very long:

 I believe in Allah, but I hate him.

 Because I think he is immoral for creating life, for putting people to the test. We hold the notion that billionaires have the money to end hunger and still have money left but they don't so they are bad. But God is the same, he has the ability to do all this yet he choses to make us suffer, for some kind of "test" so we can get heaven, our life isn't entertainment. He isn't merciful, or generous like he calls himself. If he were he would never create life. Because it's immoral, he has a higher power and makes people weaker than him, it's a power trip. He created life, put that life into pain, then based on whatever that life did then he himself decides if they get eternal punishment or not. Is that truly fair? No matter how evil one becomes, how can you judge them when you put them in every situation and hardship? Why judge them on the choices made within the circumstances he created?

If I was a scientist, and I formed a small creation. I tortured them then based on their reactions burned them in fire, would I be called generous in society?

If he never created any of us, we would never have the desire to go to jannah. How could he create me? I personally have no desire to go to jannah, hell, or be on this earth. I simply do not wish I existed, and I feel wronged that he has created me. I feel wronged on so many levels by allah, how can I get justice? How can Allah give so many people pain? How can we get justice against him then? How can I fast for Allah this ramadan, when he keeps so many children starving despite having the ability to provide for them? They are children. They have done nothing wrong. And they deserve to be more than a test for the rest of the world.