The long version of why I made this

I will try to make it as short as possible and not share everything here.

I ended up taking hs online because I couldn't take the bullying from have really bad acne for 4 years straight. Also, I'm not like pretty at all after having cleared up. I always just had like an average face.

Then college happened and I spend most of my time studying and getting into working out. I started losing some extra weight and all of a sudden I was really fit, but still average lol.

A guy sort of pretended to date me and the sexual experience was far worse than I imagined. Nothing crazy. Just like the normal stuff.

Then I spent a summer abroad studying a bit and traveling. A thing happened that had happened before.

Then I got a decent job where I travel a lot. I have never really had any friends or people to talk to. My job is even out of my home state so now I'm away from what little fam interaction I ever had.

Then on one of my recent work trips something happened while I was staying at the hotel and now I'm here.

Just fyi. I'm not fat. I've been working out relentlessly now cause it was really all I ever had to do and always relieved stress so well. I'm 5'3, 110 for reference.

I guess being alone and the several experiences I've had have lead me to the conclusion that I'm pretty messed up sexually speaking. So I guess I'm on here because I don't know what else to do and I'm honestly so freaking bored most of the time. Also, I really can't date. It's hard to find someone and when I do it's just so blah.