Not feeling guilty?

it feels like the only solution, and the right solution atp. I'm not even feeling guilty about it nearly as much as I used to when I thought about it, maybe because I know I won't be there to feel the guilt? I know it's such a terrible thing to do and everyone around me will be hurt but that's just not convincing my mind anymore I guess and I don't know if I'm insane for truly thinking it's the best and most rational option for me now as living only hurts these days