Losing friends, and not having any left

23 year old male. The title may seem like I’m losing friends because I’m a douche or something but it’s just about me going apart from them.

My friend group is made up of the same several guys I’ve been hanging with since I was a child. We know everything about each other, share stuff in common, you know the deal. Very close. Through college, I made acquaintances that I would hang out with while I was there, but only a couple I would hang out with after college. Still not as close as my original friends are/were. My personality is such that I don’t really like going out. So often when my friends message everybody about “hey let’s go here or do this”, i rarely go. That’s just been the normal since I can remember. They’re used to it, though they still nag me and wish I go. When I do make the occasional appearance everybody is thrilled.

I haven’t seen my friends in probably about 4 months. We all work, we’re busy, some of us moved a few towns away. I’ve been talking to them less and less over the past year. They all seem to still stay in touch and get together as much as possible, yet I’m still just staying home like usual. I think I’m just kind of fading into the distance. Not that they hate me, or I hate them. I think they’re just getting tired that I never show up to anything and they’re kind of giving up on me at this point. I dont have the drive to go hang out with the either. So it’s mutual I suppose. But now, I’m left with really nobody. I’m not sure how to make new friends. I’m a socially awkward person, I have kind of a niche line of interests, humor that probably not everybody would get. I don’t know what to do. Like I said, I rarely go out, but that’s not really the point. It feels like I don’t have anybody who cares about me now, or that I can play video games with, or text about the new car I just bought.

I don’t know it’s kind of a rant, kind of a question, and more of just letting you guys say whatever you’d like.