Comfortably Numb

Today I went to the hospital to check some chest pains, in Italy many medical cares are paid with taxes and free for everyone, there are priority codes: Red, orange, azure, green and white, my code was green and about 6 people came after me in worse conditions delaying my wait, is reasonable, I can wait if someone risk life more, but I'm still there with a flu, throatache, headache because of ear wax, from 23pm to 2am sitting on a chair

Things get trippy when the brain need rest or the body is sick and doesn't work properly, the realm of fireflies, the dotty rainbows that fill the void become one with "physical" images, a rabbit may appear on the tiles while you avoid to cross the sight of other people and run followed by a fox, demons (for me a word to say dual entities=minds or pieces of mind separated from the piece you dress) can be internal or external, for the subconscioous is all the same, details only relevant with closed eyes now get visible with your eyes open, editing textures of the external world

Fever dreams are special because the mind get detuned from the tonal system it got used to, but you still reconize some melodies you heard from out of the dress, like a rabbit or a fox, some call these specific kind of demons as qliphots, the experience mold a shell, the shell mold the experience, but not every aspect of experience is a shell, creation and originality are made of the same life bound by shells but take surprising paths when free from restrictions

I like this aspect of fever, it can enlight about something new or your past, it can heal what's out of balance with something else that feels out of our balance

Sometimes fever is like fire, sometimes is ice, sometimes a perfect balance of lucid absence that makes me feel comfortably numb