Why hasn’t my boyfriend ever made love to me?

Okay, this is going to be very personal and vulnerable for me, and the things I say may be inappropriate and gross, but I just need advice.

Over the past, I'm not even sure how many weeks, I have felt unfulfilled in my relationship, sexually. I love my boyfriend, I love him more than anything, but sometimes I wish he would just let loose and make love to me. I sit at night wondering what could be wrong with me, what’s the reason for him not to like me enough to want to have sex with me? I wonder if I’m simply not good at sex or making him feel good--Sometimes I wonder if I am the confused one and if that’s just simply not how things work, and people don’t just wanna jump your bones by dating you, but I need to be with someone who feels like they wanna jump my bones every time they see me. i dont care how cringe that may sound lol it’s how I feel.

I wish he would also feel more comfortable talking about sex with me, talking about intimate things in general. I wish he would feel confident enough to tell me what he wants or doesn’t, what he likes, and doesn’t, if he even wants sex at all. I know I do. But I wish I knew if he did too. And let me preface, we’re both fairly young, so i dont really think it’s an age issue if you know what I mean.

I mean, there obviously is physical attraction;

he likes me, we do stuff together, to each other, he likes to come on my face, and he humps me, he used to try and finger me at first and while he wasnt the best at it, i liked that he still tried and i figured he would get better with time but he just suddenly stopped trying. And I sometimes suck his you know what, but it’s rare when he lets me do a full job. I just wish he had sex with me. weve been together for 2 years, and I keep waiting and hinting and trying, but the time never comes. The whole humping thing- this is hard to admit- is kind of getting boring. I wish he would finger me more, or eat me out even. Talk to me dirty--beyond “come for me bb” try new things, but it’s all so vanilla. so predictable and repetitive and borderline sex-like but not really. I wanna have real intimacy, not that what we do isnt vulnerable-or real; I guess I just wanna actually have him inside of me, for sex to be a thing between us, like a constant thing. And u have told him this, but nothing seems to change.

What we do now is not meeting my needs. I honestly, at times, feel like a creep for having such needs, for wanting a man who wants me as much as I want him. who is willing to meet me halfway and who wants to make love to me. I have this hunger, per say this sick twisted dark hunger inside of me for him to just make me his. I want to be able to call him daddy and not feel awkward or out of place, for him to call me his princess, his babygirl, even if that may be taboo its what freaking turns me on and I want that. I want him to spank me and choke me and pull my hair and do things to me I could have never even imagined, to make my body his property and fulfill all of his needs with it, to I want him desperately and I need to be wanted the same way back. I cant keep on laying on my bed horny waiting for a day that may never come, or a conversation which may never be had for I have tried asking, and talking, and all I have ever gotten from him is a “im not sure” or “I’m scared of what would happen,” and before it was “I’m scared you won’t be happy with what I do” i just want him to be honest, tell me what really is going on, ugh. I wish I knew what to do, that’s why I’m here, I guess. Anyways, while he doesn’t seem uninterested, he doesn’t seem very interested in the idea either. When we do do stuff, and I try to initiate, I can literally feel him, his body shift, and not in a good way.

I’m afraid he doesn’t love me or like me enough. i dont know what to do. i dont know how to talk to him. I’m sorry for being so graphic. I just wanted to be as transparent as possible, so that what I feel could be fully grasped. Any advice and commentary is appreciated; please be kind. Thank you.