Wondering if i am a narcissist

in a relationship I like to feel needed or at least wanted. people say that a relationship is only healthy and that you can only attract a relationship with a decent person into your life if you get to the point where you no longer want one.

I dated somebody emotionally healthy once and it was the most depressing experience of my life. anytime I made an attempt to bond with or spend time with him all he did was push me away because he was so happy by himself that mind your presence in his life felt like a threat to his freedom.

we didn't do everything together, we each had our own lives. I only saw him once a week at most with zero interaction between. he said even that was too much so we decided to see each other only once every couple of months with no contact in between. he said he's still spelled smothered. I remember at one point there was this band we both really liked and they were touring in our city so I suggested we go see them together. he immediately rolled his eyes and said he was sick of doing everything together even though we almost never did anything together at all.

I can count the number of dates we went on on one hand and we were together for 2 and 1/2 years. whenever we spent time with each other he seemed bored or annoyed. he never paid attention when I said anything. whenever I was around he just went into his room and locked the door. he never hugged or kissed me except in the very beginning.

when we did go out, he'd pretend not to know me if he ran into anybody he knew. and he got angry at me when I accidentally left a phone charger at his house because it made him feel like we were already living together. he said he felt like I was invading his space even though I went back and got it as soon as I realized it was gone.

other people say that neediness repels but I would have preferred it if I felt like he at least wanted me in his life. I didn't feel like he wanted me in his life at all.