I cant stop cheating now i have started (f36)

I have recently been caught cheating working things out with hubby I promised him i would never do it again

The thing is i cant stop

Every time i try something happens after a exiting weekend and so many guys that want sex on apps

I folded and sucked a guy of in his car yesterday in my lunch break

I met him again today before work and he fucked the life out of me and left me smelling of sex

I kind of feel bad but the thrill is addictive and the naughtiness makes me drip

To make it worse im waiting in my lunch break to meet my gf s husband

I don’t know how I ended up like this but omg its so hard to change once you start

And i love my husband dearly

Its just like i have found a different me