What do I do now?

I have Real Event OCD, and it relates to my Moral scrupulosity. I’ve done things I’m deeply ashamed of. No one has ever gotten directly hurt because of what I’ve done, but the things I were doing deeply, deeply immoral. They were normal flaws or mistakes everyone makes like fighting or cheating or whatever.

I find myself comparing myself to others and convinced that I’m the worst person around me. I still think I am, and I don’t know-how to move forward.

I want to be a good person and I try to be one. But I can’t convince myself I am anymore. I’ll continue living as is, but everything just feels so pointless now

There’s nothing I can do to atone. Nothing I can do to take back what I’ve done. I know the answer is acceptance and I have accepted what I’ve done. But now there’s nothing left.

The fear and self-hatred and guilt. They’re still there, more than anything I just feel tired and empty.