23 [F4M] - curious about blackmail

Socially active, regular, friendly girl here. But I'm so stressed and nervous most of the time. I like my job but I earn little amount of money. My hopes are not that good for the future usually. I feel lonely and upset sometimes. Its hard to explain but its like something missing in my life. I need a purpose in the life.

When I back home from work, suddenly that comes to my mind: blackmail stuff. I wanna be encouraged about all of this. I hope you can understand me. Waiting for PM.