Loneliness and insecurity.

I am a 23-year-old male from Nepal, working as a software engineer. I have always been lonely throughout my entire life. I’ve never had friends to laugh with, no proper support from my family, and no one to hang out with. I have always been the second option to others.

Although this has become somewhat normal for me, for the past six months I’ve been feeling an uneasy emotion and overthinking a lot. Never in my life have I felt this drained. I feel so much pain in my heart and I’m confused about what to do.

Loneliness is ruining my life. I feel like I’ve lost the spark within me. I no longer have the intention or excitement to learn new skills. I cry a lot and often eat alone at random restaurants.

Even at work, I feel like I don’t belong there, and that everyone is far ahead of me. My heart feels heavy, and I can’t get these thoughts out of my mind.

To be honest, I feel like I’ve spent my whole life being depressed and introverted. Now I find myself questioning: Am I going to live like this for the rest of my life?