Anyone trying any medications to manage symptoms?

Just got diagnosed with depression. My symptoms are loss of sleep, lethargy (hopelessness, lack of motivation), severe and uncontrollable low, constant need to cry (doesn’t matter if I am keeping myself engaged or not) and loss of cognitive or functional abilities (unable to be 100% at my job).

I can’t afford to stay in bed all day, I have a stressful job and other responsibilities.

And somedays there are thoughts of ending it all.

The therapist recommended anti depressants as a short term solution to manage symptoms (he is unaware of the heartbreak triggers). The GP suggested it could be PMS, also pushing me to antidepressants.

I am not convinced about medication, fearing side effects and potential dependency.

But I also I don’t know how long I can keep at it until something snaps.

I really want to feel better, I need some relief.